Not all good stories are long. And not all long stories are good. I’m not sure what this is.
You know that feeling when you can’t decide between A or B, and then someone picks for you and you suddenly realize how much you didn’t care either way? Please tell me! I’d love to know how it feels!
So back to my story…as you may have guessed, that was it for me. I knew I had hesitated, and I had missed it. Although there were some very genuine reasons for my hesitation, including some concerns from my parents, I failed to accurately communicate to them what God was telling me, and used their uneasiness as an excuse to procrastinate.
Mistake #6: Never procrastinate.
That weekend I was able to give this all up to God. Although I had, per my mom’s encouragement, called an “insider” to find out if the website was accurate, I was left with the implication that the job had been filled.
By God’s grace, I had such a peace over the next few days about what had transpired. I had to trust that this was meant to be, even when it appeared it was through some failure of mine. I thanked the Lord for His goodness even in my weakness, and prayed for the courage to obey right away next time. Thanks, God, for the lesson!
Mistake #7: Never tell the Teacher when lessons are over. Wait, deja vu?
It is too late to make a long story short, so I’ll do my best to make it shorter. Just when I had settled it all (sound familiar?) and contented myself once again with my current jobs and opportunities, I received an email. From Revive Our Hearts. What had I just promised God about instant obedience? After reading it to Mama, she looked at me and said, “Well, you know what you have to do, now!” Yes, I did.
And the rest, as they say, is history.
I had a long conversation with someone I now call friend, and prayerfully–timidly–took a tiny step forward.
In March I was able to meet some staff in Dallas at their Revive Tour. I loved it. One baby step forward.
I made a trip to Michigan with my parents in May, and we loved everything we saw. One baby step forward.
I prayed and stressed, and prayed and stressed over this decision, but a decision I did make. One big step forward.
This past week I attended Seek Week, a revival week for the staff of Life Action Ministries (the parent ministry of ROH), and was completely blown away. It was a roller coaster ride wilder than Silver Dollar City’s Outlaw Run, and though I plummeted to some fearful, doubt-filled lows, God raised me up to the mountain top of perfect peace. One giant step forward.
There is much more I could share from Seek Week, which I hope to do here soon as time allows. There is much more even of this whole process in general I could share, how God’s hand was so evident in all this in many, diverse ways.
And I certainly want to ask for your prayers as I begin the next leg of this journey, that of developing a financial partner team. But I leave you with this one last thought, a reminder for me as much as anyone:
God is good. God is able. God is faithful.